My Journey (Circa 2008)

My Journey

Welcome to the story of my life
My journey toward a deeper understanding
And the battles inside my head
I get through the day because the day gets through me
No matter how stuck I am time never sticks with me
Yesterday is today and today is already tomorrow
And tomorrow is next week because it never stops
The things I fear have already happened
And the memories wrap around my soul and invade my peace
It comes and goes, but never stops
Thoughts in my head and words that I write
Hit paper like glass against brick
They shatter and scatter and fill up my head
With bits of my memory and tears from my past
Judgment is hindered and growth obstructed
Questions unanswered yet hope is strong
The fight is worth fighting if you can see through the smoke
But the fire is blazing and my soul is bare…
The struggle for balance continues.

6 thoughts on “My Journey (Circa 2008)

  1. It’s really beautiful and heartbreaking. My favorite line…”thoughts in my head and words that I write hit paper like glass against brick”. I relate to it and now how hard it is to live in the moment, unhindered by thoughts of the past and future.

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    • Thank you… I feel like life is both beautiful and heartbreaking, though sometimes I can’t see the beauty through the heartbreak. Writing sometimes help me sort things out a bit, see a little more of the beauty and let a little more of the heartbreak go…

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    • Thank you so much 🙂 I’m sorry you have felt this way too, but it’s always nice to know we’re not alone! I wrote it during my last major episode, and now that I’m in the midst of another episode it’s strange to read it. I feel so very much the same and yet detached because my life has changed so much since then. I apologize if that makes no sense! I’m glad you connected with this, it’s one of my favorites 🙂


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